It have been a long time i have not been blogging.... i am talking to myself anyway.

I kept thinking..

What should i do after i ord?

I wanted to study higher nitec not because i wanted to study.. But because i wanted to have a dragonboat team again..

If money is not a issue after i ord, i guess i will just go higher nitec and probably go work after that..

This few day i cant get to slp beacuse that i have been having a serious thought.. Being a student and row for dragonboat is what i really want and if i started

working after i ord, i am dam sure i wont have this kind of exp already... LIfe is only once, u do what u want and make it a amazing one in your own ways.

And higher nitec is stepping stone for me to poly, thats not the main purpose..

I can even imaging that i already ord and i have to finish study at simei ite then go back down to cck ite for dragonboat training and motivate those that i have to and build up a good team..

So i went to ask yan whether he want to study higher nitec, he say it is a waste of time and i find it too... And from there i am half hearted towards studying.

Just as i went to gym just now after work ( althought i am dam tired and feeling unwell beacuse of flu, but i still make the effort to train and spend time with them)..

From there, they start to talk about dragonboat and the different batches that we have been through and those junior that is currently now in ite serving ite west draonboat.

Now really makes me wanted to go study for 2 years in higher nitec and started my working life and maybe to marriage and if i am lucky enough to see my grandson and pass away peacefully to a place that where we should go after we die...

I am quite into building my body now. Something is motivating me, although i dunno what to do even when i get a nice body with nice muscle and ord if i start working i doubt i gonna maintain it.. But i just wanted to do all i can as i find it a waste of life if i am those lazy lazy type and dun bother to try it out..

LIfe is seriously dam short.. I am already 20 and i am afraid of people around me getting older and might be gone the following days. Be it friend or maybe someone i walk past and i see their face before and i know that they pass away?

Thats how i find life is..... We are brought to this world to suffer... probably its a test

for us to determine hell or heaven..

But anyway

I seriously dunno what to do next after i ord........................................................................

STUDY? for dragonboat and a life time exp..

Work?? to have the money and wait for monthly pay and let your life pass just like that.

Which one??

waste 2 years in ite just for the sake of new teammate/glory/better person.. or...

Work and die.

Fuck it man. i got no one to talk to.

at least i feel better after tpying it here and let myself see it..

ON the 1st of july. A day that i always go heaven and visit my heavenly god..
Was in camp trying some new fire fighting equipment and i was the one who set up everything like pallet and put petrol and get ready to be burn..
Everything went smoothly and the sir say it was the last trial already.
Everyone was so happy as we are tired already for doing this from tuesday to thrusday for the whole day in camp.

So i happily wear my PPE and get into the room wif a torch on fire to light up the pallet. So i walk in and the sir follow me in with a standby jet. Just before i wanted to light up the pallet, i squat down as it needed to burn from the bottom and the flame touch the floor. A explosion occur and it was right infront of me.. Although i dun feel any heat around my whole body as i am covered with PPE.
But my face is full of heat and the degree is like 700degrees. I felt the intense heat and i thought it have burn my face out of it. So i quickly turn around and saw the explosion went to the door side and everyone standing at the door side got burn and fall down due to the impact of the explosion, i run out of the room and keep touching my chin neck and face, my chin and neck was numb and i thought blister will soon come out.
I faster take out my ppe and went down of the furnace and wash with cool water and i felt abit dizzy after the refreshing from water.
I went the the medical centre and my face was red and the medic say it was a first degree burn, its like a sunburn those type. but obviously i got no blister coming out because it will take sometime for it to come out, so they put soem cooling water on the red part and i show them that my lips there got burn, and it turn white. The medic replies was, drink more water. I was like.. WTH?. Isn't this a burn? U think i nv drink water thats y my lips turn white.
OK

i thought i was about the die and this have been in my mind for days and i kept thinking of it.. imaging if i were to die next time in some refinary and with the intense Heat. I can't imaging man...

God bless.

Since a long time i have not blogged.

Been slacking and using my brain much as ns is kind of....

8 more mths to ord and yet i still have no idea what to do after that.

Sometime i thought of studying again as i wanted to expand my network and enjoy the life as a student.

But i have to go through higher nitec which is a little bit slow.

i am 21 and hang around with 16or 17 yearsold kids that can't get to poly after their o's.
and get to poly at the age of 23 and hang out with 17 kids..

FUCK MEN... Should i go study? at the age of 20plus got no income is cock life...


i Just sign up for FULL marathon which is 42km ran on dec 5th this year.. Gonna train for it. trying to reach 10-15km this coming week

Well.. i am into dragonboat again!!!!

Now i am in the team of scdf which i have pull a few of my gym partner into it and they seems to like it! =).

Trying hard to earn something out of the competition with them before i ORD. So i got the whole of this year to train wif them as it also helps to past my ns time.

I guess i gonna be the pacer for the team, some of them are quite good as compare to me, as i need to know more from them...

Dear frens. please stop me from eating fattening food!!!

Sometime seriously i dun believe what ppl say..

They say they die, but they come back to live becos they manage to see something that they assume is god and they wanted to return back to their body and alive again. So when they are alive, they go around telling people that they meant god..

So some of them actually believe in them.
It might be just a dream and how can u tell people that it might not be true..

But onethings is right, u have to start to treasured ppl around you. not forgetting ur family frens and even ppl that u dunno.

Becos i can see the earth is unstable already we might not be able to breath in this world anymore..

I am saying all this because i am fucking alone at home doing nothing..

How i wish mango will come looking for me. but its not going to happen.

unlesss

I am manhunt champion or something.

Thinking of getting part time degree after ord, but i can't even reach the minimum requirement. But seriously ppl like me will only be able to attend the first sems of the whole course. Because i gonna fail and i can't go far..

All this is just FOr LAUGH!. HAHA
Especially pok

2010.

ok

fuck you year.

Its only the beginning of the years.

ALot of stun come out already, no point sharing wif people. Just have to shallow it as this is my own life. I have to take it, as what ppl say, life have been planned accordingly.

At least u feel better when someone realise their mistake not when they are not....

I got a fren that dunno what is happening to him and another pass away.

And then 3 lady.
One. saw her and then was like, hi, her reaction was like erm erm erm erm hi..
She did say something last time that we will be . . . . . . . . but i can't force her as that time still young. there is always empty promises.
Two. Out of no where, we are brought tgt, and then we meet up almost everyday per week and i know she got some problem, but at least do bother to reply or something? at least i feel better?
Three. This one is seriously wtf........ U treat her nice, she say fuck you right back.

Been nice to girls is one thing, but dun regret after u dun give a dam about her.

I dare to say that the way i treat my friend are consider alright.. i dun backstab ffs, unless those are fucktard fren like those few currently in my ns malay dude, u just have to wear a mask due to the 1yr 10 mths u are going to face them everyday.

I just find that if i were to married now and stay away from my family, i am not ready for it.
Once u get married, u stay away from your parent, ur parent starts to age and u dun have time for them.. Although they might be quite annoying at times, but that is what u gonna be and ur children will treat you the same. Just bear it and hope that they will start to understand soon.

I got what i wanted to do after ORD.. If u want me to study, i know it will be difficult for me even get a diploma, and thats not even a minimun in singapore.

How i wish i am smart enough in everything that things will be easy for me...

blog blog, its between u and me and just some close fren of mine..
As i dun really bother who even come to visit this blog anymore. Unlike last time i would love to spread my link to every1.

My dearest teammate Tan Xue Yao.

You are always remembered.

If only we have the chance, we will once again be teammate in our next life and fight the dragonboat scene together.