why?

Why would everything end's in this way?

Why must god play me out?

Graduating soon, what got me worried was i can't get a proper job and i believe the anxiety will turn out badly.

So hey! how are you doing over there? I hope you are fine with your bf and especially your family, please do be there for your mum though she can be quite naggy, she's your mum afterall. I believe you wasn't in your right state to even accept me in the first place, anyway you warn me way before i wanted to get together with you. It just me being stubborn that got myself in this situation.

How badly i want to see you from far to know how you are, how i wish all this having a bf was a lied. 

I can't seems to forgive myself for not putting my 100% in quitting smoking, working and drinking. I believe all this is meant for my own good, you mentioned, go get a degree, actually something everyone see's, is either you dont hold a degree and earn lots of money, or you hold a degree and earn a average amount of money.

Fuck this world, why do we live in the world that require money and not staying some place where we could plant our own corns and rice