so hard to stay postive

Was thinking if i can start being positive today onwards?... but trying to.. but still can't... When to sch today and hopping that we will not be asemble at the parade there.. and YES!!!!> finally we dun have to.. and so we when to class straight.. or not i will be late again???.. think so bah.. then when to class first thing i do is.. sit beside helmi and slEEP!!!!!.... But i think its free time.. so will not affect my studies bah...... TRYING TO SMILE.. but can't.. i mean be happy too.... so i think let it be bah.... Was like.. after school tianrong sms me saying thank you for what i did for her. and try to do whatever i can do. And i wasn't happy at all too.. She yesterday afternoon ask me call her while i going gym... Then tell me saying that her teacher dun allow her to quit her chinese dance ma... .. Then i try whatever i can help and yet she when home after school straight away.. And i was thinking she just went home WO tellling me while she ask me to help her today after school.. Then after a while she sms me and thank me.. and said she not feeling well bah.. Guess she will be alright tml???... hmm.. hate this kind of whether... making everyone sick lor..Later freeze krist....... i will... dotz...... And yesterday PE right, was thinking if we will be doing some physical thing.. LIke pull up running and doing sit up for our nafa.. But mr razak j ust tell us to run 2 round and play Baseball.. BUt they call it softball...... and so.. let it be lor =\.

Then just rain finish only.. The field is so mudding.. Then tell us to play bear footed.. So we take off our shoe all this.. Then start to form our team by index number.. ODD AND EVEN... Was just like last year lor.. Then our team is the one catching the ball all this.. And ODD team will be the one betting the ball. Then the moment we stand at our position.. everyone start to complain saying. EEEEEEE>>>>>> so smelly and it dirty my leg.. And even when i was walking. The mud jump up onto our shirt and short.. So all of the girls start screeming lol....... Then we start e game.. was like not fun.. cos our team alot poeple OUT lol... But we always win last time.. but right now.... LOL?...

And so.. come to this maybe again??..... Y can't god just get rip of all flirter!!!!... BAStard.. gangster.. alot more.. Y not???... maybe i'm part of them..Or maybe should get rip of me first before killing all of them???....
HMM DOTZ.. Maybe that will happen soon???... Wish so bah...

Was thinking whats the point of having money.... when i'm not spending it.. Or maybe next time i shuld need it... So just keep bah.. or no tlike last time.. Worry about alot thing.. bills ah.. t shirt all this.. B ut now still worry about my t shirt.....+jia ying...... if she is ok... hmm............................ Right now.. wonder if everyone who is looking at my blog will understand what an i writing?? Very hard to read right??? lol....
At time feel like letting off everything and rest and sleep doing nothing.. but can't...

Was feeling that mrs chong look too up on me and helmi??...Cos she will be leaving us to a untrain teacher for math. until may.. I was hopping that she will teach us probaly and our class will listen to her.. But i knew what will happen this coming math lesson. The w hole class will be CHAOS.. She tell me when finsih our lesson today.. PLs take care of e class.. But i dun think i can keep the class silent.. I'm USELESS... Right now i feeling that whatever i do will nto success bah.. So i keep telling helmi.. i;m still weak and i might lose bah.. no more confident... Thats y trying to study hard.. IF i can Make it to U????.. See. i dun even know how to spell... Or maybe i nv try.. How an i suppose to go?...

Yesterday during asembly.. MR razali tell us about e story... No one can control what u going to do.. only u urself can....So always do e right thing when u know its right.. and dun do those rubbish that is wrong when u know its wrong... Get it all bastard and gangster..???..

Here it goes for today bah..Signing off.............John.. tuzi.... p[iggy.. xiong xiong..